A Deeper Shade of Blue

Depression is one of the most insidious forms of mental illness. I suffer from Manic Depression, which means I can have wild mood swings. Mostly though I don't want to get out of bed, I don't want to eat, I don't want to move. My life seems to go in slow motion. I get snippy and grumpy. The whole world seems to misunderstand me and I it.
The world as a whole, says that they understand depression, but when someone is depressed addresses that person as though they have a cold or a virus that can simply be medicated and fixed. That isn't how it works.
Depression is a disease like diabetes. When a diabetic has problems with thier insulin levels, they have to adjust their mediciation and try to live through the issues the best that they can. There is no cure for diabetes, yet. There is no cure for depression either. Although there are many television commercials that will tell you if you take this certain medication your depression will get better, they are lying. Medication is only part of the treatment of depression. Working with a doctor and a therapist is imparative. Even then there are going to be issues that have to be worked through. There is no easy answer or cure for depression.

I went off track on my thoughts and they wrote themselves. Try to be more understanding of someone who suffers from Depression. They cannot simply cheer up, they cannot "get over it". They are survivors who need your understanding and support.

July Afternoon

It has been a very quiet July day. The birds are singing, the sun is shining and I am alone. After the events and losses over the past couple weeks, I will take the quiet. My husband is out working on his various projects and my son's are spending quality time with their grandparents. I am enjoying myself with various little things that make me happy like listening to the birds, playing my video game and doing nothing at all.
There is a great value in doing nothing. It centers us and makes us still. In today's world we are not still enough. Too much running and going and email and texting makes our world such a loud and busy place. You can't go into a bathroom without somoene on their phone in the stall next to you! Gaah. Give me a quiet day, a day for some downtime. No phones, no computer, no tv. You will see me a much healthier and happier person for it.