*whew*

I made it through Turkey day without major binging. Oh the tepmptation was there, but all I had to do was remind myself of all the sit-ups I would have to do to burn off all those calories and suddenly it wasn't so appetizing after all. I must admit, I did indulge in more carbs than I would have liked to do.

I am really tired today. I haven't slept well in the last week. I really am looking forward to sleeping in on Sunday. :)

Thanksgiving

Thankgsiving is upon us. I have so much to be thankful for, I don't know where to begin. I am thankful for my friends and family, who support me and lift me up when I am down. I have a roof over my head that doesn't leak, my apartment is warm in the winter and cool in the summer.

That being said, I am depressed and sad. I miss family who have passed away. I miss my friends who are far away. I feel like I am moving in slow motion while everyone else is moving in fast-forward. It is so hard to explain how I feel when I am depressed. One analogy is like being underwater. You move much slower and feel like your holding your breath.

The November Dismals

It is a week before Thanksgiving and I am feeling miserable. Seasonal depression has hit me hard. I just want to sleep all the time and I don't feel like doing anything productive. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankfull for all I have. I really am! I am simply exhausted, have a headache most of the time and the Holidays haven't even started yet. *sigh* I know how to get rid of the headache-get new glasses, but we can't afford them.

The diet is still working, but I have hit a snag. I stopped journalling for a few days and boy I can see the difference in my eating habits. I will resume the journal tomorrow. I am losing between 1 and 5 lbs a week. This week wasn't so good, I only lost 1/2 a lb. :( But I know I can do better and I will do better. Hey, I doubled my sit-ups this week. Now if I could only walk more, but my knees just won't let me. They really hurt.

I am trying to be upbeat, but today I am very down. I think I am entitled to have bad times too. I know I will pull out of this, but for now I just have to ride it out.