I knew it would happen eventually. A day would come where I would just blow the hell out of my eating plan and eat everything in sight. Yesterday was that day.
*Sigh* I know what caused it, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Anything I say will sound like an excuse, at least to my ears. I am frustrated with myself.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Icky Things
*Warning-This post contains icky things. If you have a weak stomach or are a bit squeemish, don't read.
I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Not a fun disease. One day I am constipated, the next I have the scoots. I also have no gall bladder, which means, I cannot process fat or oils. In theory, they are supposed to just go right through me. They don't. They stick to my hips like glue. Now salad goes right through me. Doesn't even stop to digest, it comes out leaves and everything. As you might have guessed, this *HURTS*!
On a darker note, I am also bulimic. Granted I am a recovering bulimic, but I am still a bulimic. Whenever I eat I automatically want to go and throw up or take something to make me poop it out. Not doing this, is something that is *very* hard for me. Especially when I look at myself and see how much weight I have gained over the past 10 years. It saddens me. I used to be so beautiful and I know I still am, but with all this weight it is difficult to see.
I haven't been exercising like I want to. I have been in so much pain lately that it makes it impossible to do. So I need to do it on days when I can. What I really miss is walking. You can really enjoy the world when you walk. Not to mention that it keeps your body in harmony.
I seem to have lost my train of thought. That is all for this post. Take care and be well to all my followers.
I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Not a fun disease. One day I am constipated, the next I have the scoots. I also have no gall bladder, which means, I cannot process fat or oils. In theory, they are supposed to just go right through me. They don't. They stick to my hips like glue. Now salad goes right through me. Doesn't even stop to digest, it comes out leaves and everything. As you might have guessed, this *HURTS*!
On a darker note, I am also bulimic. Granted I am a recovering bulimic, but I am still a bulimic. Whenever I eat I automatically want to go and throw up or take something to make me poop it out. Not doing this, is something that is *very* hard for me. Especially when I look at myself and see how much weight I have gained over the past 10 years. It saddens me. I used to be so beautiful and I know I still am, but with all this weight it is difficult to see.
I haven't been exercising like I want to. I have been in so much pain lately that it makes it impossible to do. So I need to do it on days when I can. What I really miss is walking. You can really enjoy the world when you walk. Not to mention that it keeps your body in harmony.
I seem to have lost my train of thought. That is all for this post. Take care and be well to all my followers.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Progress
I went in for my weight check yesterday and I am down to 410.8 lbs. That is quite an improvement over what I started out with. I won't lie, it has been really hard.
I suppose it isn't supposed to be easy. The easy part was putting on the weight, now I really have to work for it to get it off.
I have set small goals for myself, I want to get down to 400 lbs. by June. That is 10 lbs in 4 months. If I can't do that, then I am in real trouble. :)
So, what have I been doing to keep the weight off and continue to lose more weight? Good question. I have been drinking a lot of water and milk. Yes, 2% milk, but I *hate* skim milk. I have been counting calories. That seems to work for me very well vs. the low fat, low carb, low taste options. I use this little book called "The Calorie King Calorie, fat & carbohydrate counter". I use it to count calories for eating out. I must tell you it has helped me quite a bit. Fast food has a ton of calories in it. Understanding what is safe to eat at a fast food place has made my life so much easier. (We eat a lot of fast food for lunch at work) I have also discovered that fiber is very good. Yes, the whole grain hype isn't just hype. It really works! It cleans out your system and makes you feel really good!
I suppose it isn't supposed to be easy. The easy part was putting on the weight, now I really have to work for it to get it off.
I have set small goals for myself, I want to get down to 400 lbs. by June. That is 10 lbs in 4 months. If I can't do that, then I am in real trouble. :)
So, what have I been doing to keep the weight off and continue to lose more weight? Good question. I have been drinking a lot of water and milk. Yes, 2% milk, but I *hate* skim milk. I have been counting calories. That seems to work for me very well vs. the low fat, low carb, low taste options. I use this little book called "The Calorie King Calorie, fat & carbohydrate counter". I use it to count calories for eating out. I must tell you it has helped me quite a bit. Fast food has a ton of calories in it. Understanding what is safe to eat at a fast food place has made my life so much easier. (We eat a lot of fast food for lunch at work) I have also discovered that fiber is very good. Yes, the whole grain hype isn't just hype. It really works! It cleans out your system and makes you feel really good!
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