Harder than I expected

"Thats what she said." Oh come on, you were thinking it.

Seriously, eating correctly and excersising has been much more difficult than I anticipated. Not that I thought it would be neccessarily easy, but I didn't think it would be *this* hard.

I am really struggling with hunger and pain. The last couple of days I have been hungry all the time. I have been eating good calories when I do eat, but I have had to limit how often I eat. This is something I am going to have to talk to my nurse-practioner about. We are hard wired to eat when we are hungry, and unfortunatly I am heading back to the "hungry all the time" mode.

As I said, I have been watching the calories I eat, makeing certain they are good, full of fiber, nutritional calories, which is a very good thing. It makes me stop and think *before* I put food in my mouth.

Do I have potato chips or a granola bar. They both have the same amount of calories, but which will leave me feeling fuller and is better for me nutritionally. The granola bar has nuts and fruit, not to mention fiber, which will make me feel fuller and is good for me. So the granola bar it is. When I want something salty, hmm, chips or cheese. Tricky. But one slice of swiss cheese is 100 calories and has calcium and protien. Something that my body needs anyway, so I eat the cheese.

And so it goes. Weighing each item of food for caloric and nutritional information before putting it in my mouth. Long gone are the days of just grabbing something out of the fridge and eating it. I have to maintain self-control at all times. Which is *not* easy for me. I get aggrivated and angry. I get irritable and grumpy.

I miss the freedom of food. BUT, there is a responsiblity to myself and to others who follow this blog to do the right thing. Plus, I really do want to lose the weight and get healthy again. I miss playing football with my boys.